As I continue on my personal growth journey, I’ve been thinking more and more about my past and what’s gotten me to where I’m at today
For the longest time, I was (and sometimes still am) a perfectionist.
Always having to ensure things are ‘just right’ or I don’t put it out there.
I think this one stems back from when I was a kid. I have 2 brothers and I’m the youngest by 6 years.
I remember my dad would call me the “Golden Child” or “Goldie” and that “I could do no wrong”.
Subconsciously I must have felt that I had to live up to those names.
I used to collect He-Man figures. I practically had (and still have them today) the entire collection
I had a table in my room and I would display all the figures and castles and vehicles. At least once a week, I would change up the display and remember being extra meticulous with where I put things for the various fight scenes. Making sure everyone’s armour and weapons were secured just right. And if someone hit the table and a figure fell down, I would notice it right away and fix it.
I believe being a perfectionist is good in some ways as it helped me to try harder & push more.
… I always studied extra and got really good grades in school
… My dad was my soccer coach (and scout leader) and he always encouraged me to do my best
Reflecting on my last bunch of years, I can tell it’s also held me back in some ways. I’ve been nervous about putting myself out there.
When creating content, or recording videos, I wouldn’t release it because it wasn’t 100%.
As an adult, I’ve grown up in many ways, but I’m still working on that “Golden Child”
I catch myself in those perfectionist moments and I’m more ok with things not being perfect.
We have to remember… “We Are All Works In Progress”
Our past has helped to shape our present. And what we do now, in the present, will impact our decisions, behaviour, actions & ultimately our future.